Happiness is being present.
Category: Writing
News or A Series of Tweets?
What is HuffPost, exactly? What purpose does it fulfill? Is this news? A story carried along through the reflections and notoriety of a cross-selection of angry tweets? A series of pasted tweets inside a “news” story is a bat signal to stop reading. Nothing will be accomplished in this futile partisan exercise other that achieving another 15 minutes of fame for a few random folks in the Twitterverse. I’m trending! My tweet was used in HuffPost piece on some controversy du jour!
Ah! A controversy! X said this, but Y said, no way X, how dare you, but Z said give X a break, Y, stop judging and hating! Is there a value to this exercise? I suppose if there was real substance behind the remarks, but no, the story is no more than the clash of different subjective tastes (with the added hidden assumption that some tastes are so despicable and beyond the pale they should be denounced as such).
Now to specifics, which I am loathe to engage. Is Prince Charming really a stalker? Only in the most superficial of ways, that is, detached from the specific historicity in which the fairy tale draws its inspiration. We can always fault an artist for the choices made, the character arcs they are made to follow, but never for the sins of omission that are due to the accidents of history (Medieval mores, Patriarchy, pre-capitalist economic systems, etc.). How much of an update is needed before we consign these fossils to the trash heap of history and begin the harder work of creating new myths rather than the necromancy of resurrecting the dead?
Ah! We moderns have a lot of choices at our disposable. Why not have Snow White ask her lawyers to draw up a cease and desist letter to the Evil Queen (apparently no updates for the lousy treatment stepmothers get in fairy tales). A superficial resemblance to modern sensibilities can be an interesting line of artistic exploration. But it’s a mistake to fold one phenomenon into another on that superficial basis alone.
We live on the surface. The superficial is raised to the level of the profound. We don’t even attempt to find a deeper meaning, a real profundity in the superficial because to do so would require real thought, attention to detail, and real expenditure of energy. This is not news. It’s catharsis. Something to do because we believe we have everything at our disposal and nothing else to do. We are bored and petulant dilettantes.
The rehash business is getting old. We don’t need an update, we need new myths for new times, new fairy tales. But that’s harder, and no guarantee of future success, so we walk among the decrepit tombs for inspiration. Thought doesn’t exist in a timeless vacuum to be hoovered up at will. Thoughts are ephemeral placeholders along a larger journey. We find edification and error. You can make anyone’s words and actions seem terrible in hindsight, because life is often terrible in hindsight, but not the substance, the substrate, the medium, the human. Here is where the living breathing joy is at work and at play. Come and see. The work itself will explain all there is to know.
Validation
I don’t feel validated. My words fall on empty, blank faces. If I push just a little, indicate with a sense of urgency the importance of my words, my feelings, they say “stop pushing.” It’s an unserious life, an unserious world. Yet everywhere, everything is deadly serious. I am glum. I don’t know how to break through. What do I want? Absolute acceptance, without judgment. The same face I give to the world. It is hard to generate the energy to overcome the fatigue. This fiercely personalized, deeply offended world is repulsive and offensive to look upon. I want a mirror, a face to recognize, and all I see is the vampire’s curse.
Changes
“The objective world simply is, it does not happen. Only to the gaze of my consciousness, crawling along the lifeline of my body, does a section of this world come to life as a fleeting image in space which continuously changes in time.” Hermann Weyl.
The Purpose of My Art
My art is predicated upon four foundational principles:
1. Relativity – A projective geometry. Perspectives change, but we each experience the same (valid) edifice or structure.
2. Symmetry – A projective description. The totality of perspectives unite into the same edifice.
3. Invariance – The intermediate unchanging connections or conditions that allow relativity and symmetry to unfold. A kind of pre-geometry, table, stage, field, or lattice upon which calculations can be performed.
4. Complementarity – Mutually exclusive within our local domain. You cannot paint the Sistine Chapel on top of the Mona Lisa. So choose wisely.
Liberation, not Salvation
I seek liberation, not salvation. Liberation involves work, “an active process, a process of learning and engagement” whereas “salvation comes about through external grace, or through renunciation.”
Secrets II
“The fate of secrets are obscured in the mists of history.”
Fortune Cookie
The work will teach you how to do it.
Sad Art
I am the saddest painting in the museum. I hang in a dark, quiet corner easily passed over. The paths of the hall do not encourage my discovery. Few see my walls, although I am open and accessible to all. To get here, I’ve had to live countless innumerable lives and at great personal sacrifice. I poured my guts, thoughts, passions, time, energy, devotion, love, pain into my singular work of expression. To watch the empty blank faces pass me over is really quite sad. Sometimes, someone will come along, pause to linger at me for a few seconds, before pressing on, turn and walk away. I make no impact. No one stands to gawk at me. No one debates me, or discusses me. No one validates my existence by showing any genuine response. No one is moved to tears. Oftentimes they don’t even stare, they decide immediately, instantaneously and for reasons unknown to me and maybe unknown to them, that there is nothing appealing in me or worthy of their time. I am not an important work. Better to seek out the really important works, the ones others have judged superior, to go along with the consensus view because taste can not be judged or made poor. Occasionally someone will stop for more than a few seconds. A superior artist, come to judge my fitness, to puzzle over me for awhile. But eventually they too will give up, put me away, deem the puzzle either unsolvable or all too easily solved. There is no lasting importance here. Sad art, sad wall, sad museum.
A Feature, Not a Bug
The County singer Luke Combs has popularized “Fast Car”, an old Tracy Chapman gem from my bygone era. The Washington Post used the occasion as a springboard to address larger issues of race and sexual identity and the lack of representation in country music. Some pushed back, feeling the editorial was gratuitous. Can’t we just like the song? Does everything have to be about “those issues”? The back and forth commenced.
What interested me though, was the way the two camps are talking past each other. One side is asking for a cease fire in the culture wars, the other is offended at the attempt to rule out of bounds beforehand legitimate questions surrounding “those issues”. A song written by a black lesbian popularized in country music is a healthy sign, a cause for celebration. It is also an occasion to ask and raise questions because the barriers are real and still exist. The back and forth is a feature, not a bug. If the Washington Post made its argument and was greeted with universal agreement and acclaim, I suspect the real world would look much different then the world they are describing.
But it also got me thinking. Is there a sizable underground contingent of black lesbian country performers desperate but unable to cut into the mainstream? And how would a country Tracy Chapman, an undeniable whistle-popping, feet-stomping talent succeed in that market? Would she have to be careful, proceed with a subtle, covert lesbianism, or could she give it the full Cardi B treatment? In the end, it’s all about winning, I suppose. That seems to be the way America resolves these cultural disputes. At a certain point, the talent, the ear-worm catchiness converts even the most hard-hearted cynical souls. The bug is the feature. So feature the bug, front and central.