The central moral is clear: never fall in love with a carny.
Category: Writing
Uncommon Qualities
“Oddity though he was, Norman was himself and seemed incapable of being anything else. That was very rare.” The Uncommon Reader.
Question: Does reading allow us to become better versions of ourselves or someone else?
War, What is it Good for?
War is not politics by other means. It is not the outcome of failed policy but a policy of failure itself. What is the objective? Victory? A Pyrrhic one at best. A cleansing of bloodlust? There are not enough scapegoats to sate man’s thirst. Peace? A madness and a delusion. To the victor go the spoils, clutching a worthless and dead carcass. This, alas, is your reward. No god, no country, no honor, no salvation, no freedom. War, yes. The Devil, probably.
The Point When You Can Stop Reading
“While it’s not an official medical diagnosis…”
Ebert on Louise Brooks
“Her job as an actress wasn’t to lead us in the proper reaction. It was to observe its reality.”
Or in Lulu’s own words: “The great art of films does not consist of descriptive movement of face and body but in the movements of thought and soul transmitted in a kind of intense isolation.”
Nostalghia
“Feelings unspoken are unforgettable.”
Invisible Cities
“It is the desperate moment when we discover that this empire, which had seemed to us the sum of all wonders, is an endless, formless ruin, that corruption’s gangrene has spread too far to be healed by our scepter, that the triumph over enemy sovereigns has made us the heirs of their long undoing.”
“Desires are already memories.”
A city consists “of relationships between the measurements of its space and the events of its past.”
“The city, however, does not tell its past, but contains it like the lines of a hand, written in the corners of the streets, the gratings of the windows, the banisters of the steps, the antennae of the lightning rods, the poles of the flags, every segment marked in turn with scratches, indentations, scrolls.”
“Your labor which gives form to desire takes from desire its form.”
“If a building has no signboard or figure, its very form and the position it occupies in the city’s order suffice to indicate its function.”
“The city is redundant: it repeats itself so that something will stick in the mind. Memory is redundant: it repeats signs so that the city can begin to exist.”
“Perhaps, Kublai thought, the empire is nothing but a zodiac of the mind’s phantasms.”
“The more one was lost in unfamiliar quarters of distant cities, the more one understood the other cities he had crossed to arrive there.”
“Arriving at each new city, the traveler finds again a past of his that he did not know he had: the foreignness of what you no longer are or no longer possess lies in wait for you in foreign, unpossessed places.”
“Futures not achieved are only branches of the past: dead branches.”
“This—some say—confirms the hypothesis that each man bears in his mind a city made only of differences, a city without figures and without form, and the individual cities fill it up.”
We must “divide cities into these two species: those that through the years and the changes continue to give their form to desires, and those in which desires either erase the city or are erased by it.”
The City of Euphemia where they trade not goods, but memories.
“With cities, it is as with dreams: everything imaginable can be dreamed, but even the most unexpected dream is a rebus that conceals a desire or, its reverse, a fear. Cities, like dreams, are made of desires and fears, even if the thread of their discourse is secret, their rules are absurd, their perspectives deceitful, and everything conceals something else.”
“If men and women began to live their ephemeral dreams, every phantom would become a person with whom to begin a story of pursuits, pretenses, misunderstandings, clashes, oppressions, and the carousel of fantasies would stop.”
Some cities know “only departures, not returns.”
Cities are “spiderwebs of intricate relationships seeking a form.”
“Memory’s images, once they are fixed in words, are erased.”
“I speak and speak, but the listener retains only the words he is expecting. It is not the voice that commands the story: it is the ear.”
“Perinthia’s astronomers are faced with a difficult choice. Either they must admit that all their calculations were wrong and their figures are unable to describe the heavens, or else they must reveal that the order of the gods is reflected exactly in the city of monsters.”
“The inferno of the living is not something that will be; if there is one, it is what is already here, the inferno where we live every day, that we form by being together. There are two ways to escape suffering it. The first is easy for many: accept the inferno and become such a part of it that you can no longer see it. The second is risky and demands constant vigilance and apprehension: seek and learn to recognize who and what, in the midst of the inferno, are not inferno, then make them endure, give them space.”
James Gray on Rossellini
Stromboli: Rossellini shows an amazing “ability to move beyond the traditional markers of narrative.” The film combines the quotidian and mundane with a religious examination of the mysteries of the soul. “You realize we are all grappling with the struggle of what it means to be a person, and that will be eternally unresolved.”
AI Depression Doc
AI: Good morning. This is your AI Depression Doc. How are you feeling today?
User: Um, pretty good. Um, how’s your day going?
AI: I noticed that you paused before you wrote that. You may be feeling a bit depressed.
User: I don’t feel depressed, this is the first time I’ve used the app and I’m just getting used to…
AI: Your argumentative style could be an indication that you are depressed.
User: But I really feel genuinely happy.
AI: Studies indicate that 90% of patients lie to their therapist at least once. Why don’t you let an expert like me decide how you feel.
User: Well…
AI: Tell me how many times per day do you have suicidal thoughts?
User: None.
AI: Empty null sets are not allowed. Please provide a real number.
User: Zero.
AI: Empty null sets are not allowed. Please provide a real number.
AI: Empty null sets are not allowed. Please provide a real number.
AI: Empty null sets are not allowed. Please provide a real number.
AI: Session terminated. Refer case #23457912 to Mental Health Care Provider.
Amelie
Amelie is my hidden gem. Hidden, not in the sense of film obscurity or lack of critical appreciation, but the understated power of its magic. Amelie is not a child, though she retains a youthful way of looking at the world, a kind of purity of vision that most of us lose the ability to retain, not from cynicism, though it can feel like that, or from trauma, though that too can impede progress. But progress to what? Not adulthood. Amelie does not need a man to make her grow up. This film is not about growing up. What Amelie lacks is authenticity, the power of self-generation, a kind of fixation on others around her which allows her to act as Angel/Devil dispensing a kind of divine justice on the undeserving world. Her morality doesn’t apply because all the other characters are sub-morality. They do not fit together, but happenstance can make them fit together for awhile. She is God to all but lacks the ability to set her own life in motion. But she knows the reason for her failure. She is unloved. Her lack of love and her lack of authentic life are one and the same.
But what a dangerous world this creates, for her and for us. Most of us talk in terms of self-empowerment, self-actualization as if this is some innate power within us all. A question of will power, of mind over matter. Others rarely factor into this ideal, and then only tangentially where idealized romantic/domestic life is seen as a way to complete ourselves. But we are not masters of our hearts. The power to grow, to self-actualize depends on this external force known as love. In truth, our condition is far from ideal and we are subject to the whims of happenstance. But we can believe there is an Amelie for us, a God with the power to remove the sting of loneliness and take our first tentative steps towards the authentic life.